Fear

Life's one big show.
It's hard not to get caught in it because you get left behind if you don't.

I'm always so concerned about how others are feeling. I want people around me to be happy when they're with me. I'm scared of offending. Of hurting. I want people to trust me. To know they can always depend on me to be a friend.

Why do I find it so hard to open up to people? I always have this nagging fear within me when I go into a conversation with someone new. It's like I really need the person to have had a good time talking to me. I don't know how to put it, this is the best I can do:
I don't want the person to waste his/her time talking to me. I want the person to feel that it was worth spending that few minutes with me. I think I have some weird strain of inferiority complex. It's easy to identify, but I can't cure it. I always feel, um, of less worth?

Do you get it? Because I don't get why.